Je ne souhaite plus être en vie sans toi.

I don't want to be alive. I wish I had never been born. For 15 years I had been searching for my purpose. The reason for why I'm alive. Then I found it. I found him. I found Dylan. But Dylan decided he didn't want to be my purpose anymore. He wanted to be Heidi's purpose. So now what do I do? What do you do when you've lost your purpose in the world? Your reason for living? Most would say, "Find a new purpose." But you see, I'm one of those people that believe that they only have one purpose for everything. And I've lost my one purpose. I don't want to live anymore. I don't want to die. I simply wish I had never been born at all. I wouldn't have to feel any pain ever. No one would have had to deal with me. There would be someone better in the world. But you want to truth? I hate myself.