Excerpts from a purple notebook; Insert seven

May 25, 2011

Aren't humans supposed to pick one partner and spend the rest of their lives with them? Aren't we supposed to be like geese? Geese chose one mate and that's their love forever. Aren't humans supposed to be kinda like geese? We go through life surrounded by people that look the same. Two feet, two legs, two arms, two hands, one head, one mouth, one nose, two eyes, two ears. All pretty much the same just constructed a bit differently and painted with different colors. We swim in an ocean ful of faces. We never start ro think like geese until elementary school but even then, not really. When we get to middle school, we start really testing the other faces and start thinking about other geese. Some geese become interested in other geese but maybe the other goose doesn't feel the same. You have to stay a single goose. Then comes high school. You're in the prime time for experimenting and the sea is thick with love opportunities. You're a single, lonely, goose. You just want love. You know what you have to do.

Step one; Get over that sad excuse of a goose names Tyler. [x]

Step two; Consider other options. Noah Caron, prehaps? [x]

Step three; Didn't work out? Maybe just get to know some other guys as friends first. How about Joe, Dylan and Justin? [x]

Step four; Justin likes you? I guess it's a good thing you sorta like him too. Admit feelings. [x]

Step five; Hang out with him outside of school. [x]

Step six; Try to get him to ask you out. [x]

Step seven; Things didn't work out? It's okay, feel a bit sad. Get over him, he wasn't anything special anyway and you guys didn't really go out. [x]

Step eight; Try considering new guys now that you feel better. Joe and Dylan seem like nice guys that wouldn't play you like Justin. Prehaps one of them? [x]

Step nine; Pick one of them. Who'd you chose? Dylan? Sounds good. [x]

Step ten; Make it all up from there as you go. [x]

You didn't have any hope for him liking you but he did. The feelings he gave you? Oh my God...they were unbelieveable. He can still give you those feelings but they're replaced by other emotions now. He's the only person that could ever make you feel the way he does. You've never had emotions feel so strong before. You had love, little goose. You found your goose. Your special face that saved you from a sea or unfriendly faces. Your goose promised you forever, marriage, children. He told you that you were the greatest thing that ever happened to him and that you saved him from the layers of hell. he was your goose. You and him were a pair of geese. You should've stayed together forever. But humans aren't like geese. Dylan left you, little goose. He left you for another goose. A better goose. You gave him everything, you poor little goose. You're alone again little goose, alone.